31 March 2014

Magpie Tale 213: His Other Life


Image via Magpie Tales

Shaking hand opened the drawer
Wormy chestnut, waxy blackened 
angsty scrawls of sun-faded youth 
Burden of years constricts the heart
that sees the tarot of inks it never wore 
Never will, not in this life, nevermore,
Change has come, blood spilled
in a different river from passion's run

24 March 2014

Magpie Tales 212: Unmade


My Bed by Tracey Emin, via Magpie Tales

She was told by earnest hearts
the simple solution was to get up
Shower, primp and perform
Monkeys at the circus, no doubt

She tried, decades of self-combat,
to make the sober faces happy
But what to them seemed prison
To her was sanctity of the womb

23 March 2014

Feeding Yourself (Sunday Meditation #37)

Chewing my way through a shrimp po' boy the other day, hunger doing its best to overcome disgruntlement at being surrounded by competition culture. The sandwich proved to be a fair balm, but only just. Meditation on society and culture should not be done on an empty stomach but perhaps it is to be avoided whilst eating. Especially hard to do when surrounded by big screen TV's and noisy folks watching the game(s).

Nowhere is safe it seems, in this modern society, from the illness of competition. Everything has been turned into some sort of sports metaphor, with all of us required to give "110%" and to "bring it" when it is "game on". All the time, 24/7. And I am quite tired of it.

Even cooking and eating are not spared the lunacy of win or die. I noticed this one night this week while watching a cooking show on the tube, the name of which rhymes with "Flopped". I do enjoy watching the chefs work creatively under impressive constraints, but it became clear to me with the episode in question just how pernicious sports and gaming "culture" have gripped our sensibilities.

The announcers, the chefs, the ads, all using the language of conquest, domination and war. It isn't enough to create something amazing for its own sake, it has to "crush" the competition it "came after". The erstwhile chefs throw shadow punches and talk about their fellow contestants as if they were weak neighbor nations in possession of natural resources to be pillaged. They must be "taken down" and "dominated" because they are all "here to win".

It is a conundrum I face every time I set out to cook something or write something: for whom and why do it? The truth became apparent to me as I ruminated on the sandwich I was devouring. To focus on domination, humiliation and subjugation of others as "winning" is to have already lost the game. Whether it be cooking a meal or filling the pages or sending a ball through a hoop, the true competition lies not in overcoming others, it lies in overcoming one's own self.

17 March 2014

Magpie Tales 211: Simon Says


Feast in the House of Simon, 1610, El Greco via Magpie Tales

In my house at meat
Cure upon me, yet
I am the example
to be made of forgiveness,
by you, son of God?

Outcast I was, perfume I have not
Let the question reverse itself
Thankful to keep my limbs
But without perfume or hair as rags
You damn me with faint praise