16 February 2014

Her Number (Sunday Meditation #32)


There it is, on my daughter's back, as big as day. Arctic white numerals against royal blue. The color is not the same as the kit I wore.

The pitch comes back in a rush. My legs root me to a ground far away from my teens while my mind lands back in high school. The number on my back is arctic white against deep maroon. Coach didn't put much stock in names on the jersey, the '11' stark and alone.

She wears my number now, a strange and wonderful weft through the warp on the loom of my life. The number turns back the clock, opening the door on a glimpse, however brief, of the boy I used to be looking up at the man I have become.

It seems only possible through her, on days like this one where we run ourselves breathless under a pewter sky. She chasing the ball, me chasing a better man I hope someday to catch.

She wears my number on her back. The honor is mine, though she knows it not. I watch her run the field, I am breathless, I am blessed to wear her number on my heart.

Field notes, October 2013. Gracing an emerald field, she plays the beautiful game.


  1. I wish you would write something crappy so I wouldn't always sound like such a fangirl... ;D

    Loved this...it made me smile and sigh and think perhaps you've already caught up to that better man.

    1. My apologies for your trouble, madam. ::grin:: Thank you so much!

  2. I agree with Terlee that the better man is staring back at you in the mirror.


"Let your laws come undone
Don't suffer your crimes
Let the love in your heart take control..."

-'The Hair Song', by Black Mountain

Tell me what is in your heart...