What do you really think of love do you know do you know I'm not sure I know because I have been thinking about it long too long way too long
and it occurred to me I still don't know how could that be after all these years? Maybe maybe its because I didn't understand it then and I don't now but back then I didn't know I didn't understand, you dig it?
Good good I knew that you could so dig this my pretties tonight I had the flash the realization the kick in the cerebrum that if I were to try writing what I really think of love
oh my god my head might explode or my heart burst and yours might too (though I doubt that I suspect yours is stronger than mine) but what I do know is this:
I had love and then it slipped away and that makes me wonder if my grasp was weak,
or love too strong,
or me just unlucky,
and maybe love was a bomb that I could not defuse and it blew up in my face to scatter me to the wind,
or maybe love was a bomb that I should have let explode, catching me in the fallout of grace and the dust of being wanted by someone...swept away by the overpressure of knowing
I
am
love(d).
eternal questions, Irish, frickin' eternal.
ReplyDeleteI've discovered (as you may have) that loving my child is the freest kind of love I've experienced (except maybe as an infant myself). Yeah, sure, we get into all the nasty mother-daughter bullcrap, but damn, I don't think I've loved another human being quite this much.