07 October 2011

Of Axes and Impossibilities

This post wrote itself.  Not literally, of course.  I, me, the person who is at the keyboard did the work.  The central idea, however, was ready made.

I was let go from my job today.

Third time in three years.  I must say, it is a song and dance I am mighty sick of doing.  The timing is never good, but it is absolutely horrible for me right here and now.  I am quite short in a key resource, and the steady paycheck was necessity not nicety; no fat margins for me.  Hell, no real margin at all.

I say "was".  Reality? It is a necessity, a fact driven home to me when I sat down to take stock.  The stock, sad to say, was a bit thin.

So.

I don't know what the next step may be.  I've been an architect all of my adult life.  This is the sixth time in that span that I have been laid off.  You might think the universe is trying to tell me something.  The problem, the crux of this dilemma, is that I really don't know what to do next.

That's a hell of a thing for someone who is trained as a professional problem solver.

So.

Where now?  And did you know that, coincidentally, I began blogging three years and a day ago?  Interesting.  Trivial.  Useless, maybe, as a fact.  But interesting.

So.

Where do I go now?  I don't know.  I just don't know.  I'm fleeing axefalls and running headlong into impossibilities.  It's going to take some magic.

11 comments:

  1. Breathe. Temporarily wallow and rage. Then? Well, then you will figure it out. I, for one, believe you will come out okay and maybe even better. But right now, just breathe.

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  2. shit. that sucks. but, I await your next reincarnation, because you are nothing if not a phoenix

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  3. I'm sorry. Wow. I didn't realize how volatile the architecture world is these days.

    Just don't give up. You will find something to keep you going. I don't even know what else to say.

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  4. I am so sorry to hear this ..
    Someone near and dear to us was in this situation and it did become very serious , when no options were left to consider, a job came through that is in most peoples heads, a dream job. All is well now. I hope the same thing happens for you.
    Have you given any thought to moving where your expertise might be more needed ?
    besos, C

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  5. Irish-

    I have no words of wisdom. I just hope you know that we are here, and we care.

    --Feisty

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  6. Sorry to hear that you were let go from your present employment, perhaps this is your opportunity to go and chance your career path (seeing that construction generally is in the doldrums at the moment, I know as I am in the same boat as yourself and am currently retraining), so hopefully it will be a case on onward and upward from here on out for both of us

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  7. Blogger just ate my heartfelt response. Ok, granted I wasn't actually logged on when I entered it, but how is that my fault? Good luck, my friend. I know how much that sucks, but at least I had the benefit of a security blanket. Three in three is just cruel. Hope you find something soon, whatever you decide to do.

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  8. Damnit, Irish. Just not fair.

    So sorry to hear. You will be fine, of course, but... you are certainly entitled to a Not Fair temper tantrum.

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  9. Thinking of you.

    Apples are a great thing to throw against brick walls. They are biodegradable and make less of a mess than plate shards. Also they make a very satisfying thwack of a sound as they split into two (or more) pieces.

    Hugs

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  10. So sorry. That really sucks. Hope you find something soon!

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  11. As a friend and I chatted the other day about all the shit that has been hitting the fan of late, bad tings happening to very good people more than seems appropriate, she made the remark, "it all may be for a good cause in the long run, but the Universe needs to lighten up."

    I will hold you in light and love for a positive outcome.

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